This is it, I want to remember,
I can’t fathom why?
I want to revel in history,
Creeping towards that time I can’t piss unaided,
It brings pain and joy in equal mocking measure.

 

Yet I can’t defile my mindset,

With thoughts of remembering alone,
If even once you conjure a memory,
A spark or muse to my very existence,
That there will deliver me,
That burnt on, undeniable retrospect,
Will send me off mortal coil vindicated.

 

In the meantime,
Be content with your significant other,
Ignore this tiny and fractal farce,
I’ll try and think of it as so,
And fail miserably as I always do,
A stupid, forgettable interlude,
Nothing satisfying, nothing new.

​

2011